Summer till September

I have the most unorthodox college life. 

When I was in 3rd year high school, all my friends took up review classes in the summer before senior year. They enrolled in Ahead, in our High School and different tutorial places, so that they'd be more confident in taking the tests for the University/College of their choice. I took the road less traveled, and I didn't take review classes. A lot of my older friends kept telling me that they were useless, that some people were too distracted by the co-edness of it all, that nobody really took it seriously. I figured that if that were the case, I'd be throwing away 10k for a few weeks of studying that I could do at home, so I didn't enroll for review classes. Instead, I studied at home and reviewed old notes and reviewers. 

Sophomore Year

I'm at a crossroads
Still trying to keep things intact
Two steps forward
Yet another step back
I was never one to falter
Or to surrender to the rise and fall
But in the end, courage gets the best of us all.

The Wheel of Life is a flat tire
Worn and burnt out
Daunting, without a doubt.

I'm at a crossroads
I'm stuck in the pedestrian lane
Waiting for the signal to change
But it never comes
It never comes.

Cars chase by
Traffic lights
Try to keep up
with the changing times
It's not enough to learn every trick in the book
A brake doesn't keep you from spinning down
A break won't keep me from wanting out

I'm at a crossroads
Do the answers lie at the finish line?
Will the questions cease from time to time?
Standing on the pavement
Waiting, waiting, waiting
... Go.

13

When I say these words I mean them to be biting

Enough of white lies and half-truths that do absolutely nothing

Useless punctuations and periods that never end

Aren't you tired, the battle lost not won

Can't change your mind, when the damage has been done

Last Days On A Cruise Ship

On some days you feel like it'd be alright, but then reality grips in and sets you drifting away, on a boat you never wanted to board in the first place. At first, the cruise is daunting and absolutely not what you had signed up for, but as the days go on, you tell yourself that, hey, it isn't so bad after all. So for months you're on that ship, being tossed about by the waves, in the middle of nowhere, until one day you dock back on land. And you forget what it felt like to actually stand on your two feet, without the swaying, without the waves, without the current. So this is what it's like, you say, and you had forgotten.

Some people end up settling for something because they're used to mediocrity. Some don't feel the need to search for more and dream bigger, because what's the point in wanting something you don't have, when there is already an opportunity waiting for them? I may have my head in the clouds and my eyes set on the sun, but I'd rather be blinded from the brightness than be blind to possibility.